Day 32 reading: Exodus, chapters 4-6
I’m just going to jump right into today’s scripture passage because I am excited and really feeling this. A recurring theme today is Moses’ own insecurity about speaking the words of God.
Moses said to the Lord, “O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant, I am slow of speech and tongue.”
The Lord said to him, “Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him his sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the Lord? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.” (4:10-12, NIV)
I am there! Friends, let me admit now that I am not eloquent in my speech, either. When I write, I feel like the words absolutely flow out of me. My fingers dance across the keyboard in a lovely little rhythm. Everything flows and all is well in the world.
However, when I try to speak, even simple every-day conversation, even with my own family and friends, I feel like I am tripping and falling on my face at every turn. Can anyone relate?
There was a time in my life when the words didn’t flow as easily onto the page or computer, but I was much more self-assured in my speech. It’s as if I have traded one for the other; like I can’t have them both at the same time. Very interesting dynamic, I think. (frustrating, at times…but interesting just the same)
But here’s the cool part: when it’s truly crunch time, when what I am saying aloud is serious and sound and uplifting to Him, the words flow exactly as they should. When everything is clicking, I couldn’t write the words better and they take no thought, no obsessing, no processing, the words just flow from my mouth. The difference is that when the Lord is guiding my words and those words are falling on ears prepared by Him to truly hear, it’s not me speaking, but Him speaking through me.
The Lord said to him, “Who gave man his mouth?”
Amen, my Father, amen! Message received!
Yet even Moses, who had been directly called by the Lord, who had spoken to the Lord on several occasions, was still not sure of his abilities to speak and pass along the Word of God.
Moses said to the Lord, “O Lord, I have never been eloquent…I am slow of speech and tongue.” (4:10)
But Moses said to the Lord, “If the Israelites will not listen to me, why would Pharaoh listen to me, since I speak with faltering lips?” (6:12, NIV)
But Moses said to the Lord, “Since I speak with faltering lips, why would Pharaoh listen to me?” (6:30, NIV)
But Moses said, “O Lord, please send someone else to do it.” (4:13, NIV)
Then the Lord’s anger burned against Moses and he said, “What about your brother, Aaron the Levite? I know he can speak well. He is already on his way to meet you, and his heart will be glad when he sees you. You shall speak to him and put words in his mouth; I will help both of you speak and will teach you what to do. He will speak to the people for you, and it will be as if he were your mouth and as if you were God to him.” (4:14-16, NIV)
Again and again so far in our journey, and in our current days, God makes amendments in the plan to account for our very human shortfalls. It doesn’t effect the end result, but sometimes the twists and turns our humanness put into His mighty plan for our lives have to be frustrating to Him.
How many times in my own doubts and fears have I put a wrench in God’s plans for my own life? Too many for ME to count, I’m sure! The joy in this is that as long as we are seeking to please Him with our steps, as long as we are praying for His guidance, even our slips will only cause stumbles, but not falls. He’s got YOU, have no fear!
My friends, I am so glad to be covered by His blessings.
Make it a great day,
Day 32 reading: Exodus, chapters 7-9